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My favourite scene from Heart of Darkness
I have the hard task of choosing my favourite scenes from some of my books to share with you this weekend. It might sound like a lot of fun, but sometimes there is more than one scene that I really love in a book and choosing between them can be very tricky. Add to that the fact that I can’t choose a scene that gives something major about the plot away and it becomes doubly tricky!
My next favourite scene is from Heart of Darkness and again it was really difficult to choose between them. It’s a long scene this time, close to 6000 words, but it’s one that I really love and I think it shows Aleksandr in all his beauty.
My Favourite Scene From…
Heart of Darkness
Elise rubbed the sleep from her eyes and hurried down the dim corridor on the second floor. Was Aleksandr alright? The knock on her bedroom door had startled her but not as much as the request of the servant on the other side. The young male vampire had hastily relayed an order to join Aleksandr in his reception room and then quickly left. She couldn’t blame him for being nervous when the sun was up. Or had the trace of fear she had felt in him been because of Aleksandr? She raced down the stairs to the first floor and stopped near the bottom, cautiously peering around the wall to the entrance hall. The shutters were down, blocking out the noonday sun. The sound of footsteps broke the silence, heavy on the hardwood floor below. She glanced down at the immense man dressed head-to-toe in black fatigues. One of the day guards that her family employed. The werewolves had always been more than happy to protect her kind in return for an exorbitant amount of money. He looked up at her, golden eyes sharp and curious. Elise moved on, driven by curiosity herself.
Why was Aleksandr awake and why did he need to see her?
Red spots had stained his bandages. Perhaps he was hurting again, in too much pain to sleep. She hadn’t done a good enough job. He’d said that she had but she didn’t believe him. If she had done her job properly, he wouldn’t have bled again.
Elise cursed herself.
She should have allowed the medical staff to assist him. The thought that he might be in pain because of her twisted her stomach and made her feel sick. It had been foolish of her to try to keep him all to herself, to desire to return the favour and make him better, to look after him as he had her.
She slowed when she reached the double wooden doors to his rooms and then knocked without hesitation.
“Come.†His voice was heavy and quiet through the doors.
Elise opened them, slipped into the room, and closed them silently behind her. The fire was the only light in the dark red room. She moved forwards, wanting to see Aleksandr. He sat shirtless in the leather armchair with its back to her and the door. There were blood canisters and an empty glass on a small round wooden side table next to the armchair. It reassured her that he was feeding well, but she still wanted proof that his injuries were healing and that she hadn’t left him in pain. He had said the bleeding was his fault, and she had seen him grab his brother, but the guilt still lingered inside her, adding to her worry.
It wasn’t only that he was hurt. She feared that he had seen things in her blood.
He didn’t look at her as she came to stand beside him, with the small table between them and the red couch to her left. She smoothed down the loose black jogging bottoms and camisole, her hands shaking as she did so. Perhaps she should have dressed properly before coming to him. She had panicked when the servant had given her the message and had thrown on the first clothes she had found. Now she felt oddly naked around him, exposed even when she wasn’t.
She felt vulnerable without her uniform to protect her. Did she hide behind her duty so much that it had become her shield, her way of keeping people from getting too close to her?
Elise wrapped her arms across her chest. Aleksandr still didn’t look at her.
He stared at the flames, quiet and distant, the air around him heavy as though affected by the weight of his thoughts.
Not wanting to disturb him, she stepped back and turned to leave.
“Stay,†he whispered and she looked at him over her shoulder. He was still staring at the fire.
“What are my orders?†she said, trying to draw a reaction from him. His expression didn’t shift, not even to show the slightest sign of emotion.
“Orders? No orders.†He slowly turned his head and looked up into her eyes. There was such fatigue in his handsome face, and so much weariness in his grey eyes, but she couldn’t fathom his feelings. He was too old for her to read easily. “Sit a while. I need company.â€
She didn’t have the heart to protest, not today, not when he looked so tired and lost. She could have considered his words to be an order but he’d made it clear that they weren’t. They were a request, and she granted him it, because he looked as though he genuinely needed the company.
Elise sat in the leather armchair opposite him, her rising nerves churning her stomach. The fire was warm against her legs but she pulled them up, placing her bare feet on the seat of the chair, and wrapped her arms around them. She didn’t want to be too close to the flames. Aleksandr didn’t seem to care about the danger it represented. He was staring into it again, his head propped up on his right hand, his long black trouser-clad legs crossed.
He said nothing.
She took him using his arm as a good sign and took his silence as an opportunity to check the bandage. Someone had placed a new one on him and, judging by how untidy it was, they didn’t have medical knowledge. Had his brother helped him?
Without thinking, she frayed the ends of the strip of bandage around her right wrist, her gaze lingering on Aleksandr’s face. He was undeniably handsome, even when he was thinking so hard that there was a focused edge to his eyes, his dark eyebrows knitted tightly. His mussed dark hair told her that he had slept at some point. Why was it eluding him now?
Elise wanted to ask him what was on his mind so he would feel better for sharing it but it wasn’t her place to behave in such a way, and she feared where it might lead. Instead, she stayed with a safe question but one she wanted an answer to nonetheless.
“Are you in pain, Sir?â€
He turned his frown on her and she held his gaze, unafraid of the darkness in his eyes. Her use of a rank for him had annoyed him. She had no right to call him Aleksandr. She had been far too friendly with him recently and had acted out of place. Someone of her rank didn’t belong with him, and they certainly didn’t have the right to act so familiarly around him.
He shook his head, his frown remaining in place. His gaze fell to her wrist and his frown disappeared.
“You worry about it.†He held his hand out to her. Elise placed her feet down on the rug, leaned forwards, and offered her wrist to him. He carefully unpinned the bandage and removed it. She shivered when his thumb grazed the two dark spots on her skin and ached at the memory of how it had felt to have him bite her. “You worried about it in the hall when my brother had arrived, and after in this very room when you came to enquire about my health. You worry too much, dearest Elise.â€
Did she? She didn’t think that she did. He had bitten her and she knew that she had done a terrible job of keeping her thoughts and feelings hidden from him.
“I did see things in your blood,†he whispered, his thumb continuing to stroke her wrist, sending shiver after shiver racing up her arm. He looked deep into her eyes. “I saw nothing I can use against you, if that is what you fear.â€
“I do not,†Elise lied with ease, not wanting him to see her weakness, and took her hand away from him. What had he seen? She desired to press him into telling her but knew it was pointless. He was already staring at the fire again, his expression becoming heavy once more. “You seem tired, Sir.â€
“If there is anyone in this world worthy of calling me Aleksandr, it is you, Elise. I tire of your formality. I am not your commander in these long hours of day where sleep eludes me. I am a selfish man who woke you so I might not face the day alone.â€
Elise drew her feet back up onto the chair and hugged her legs. Nothing but a man? He was more than a man, even when it was day, and the hour didn’t change her respect for him, or the fact that he was her commander. He wanted it to though. She could see that in his eyes. He wanted her to treat him as though he was only a man in need of company, something which she could give him. He didn’t want to be a prince or a commander to her. She knew what he wanted, and she was too afraid to give it to him. He couldn’t be her lover.
But he could be a man.
A friend for now at least.
“Why does sleep elude you?†She studied his face as he stared into the flames. They danced in his eyes, turning the grey golden, making him look like one of the werewolves even when she knew he wasn’t. The werewolves didn’t suffer the call of darkness as her kind did, as Aleksandr did.
“I have not had that dream in many years,†he whispered to the fire and pressed his fist against his lips. “It has not shaken me in decades.â€
“Dream?†Elise lowered her feet again and leaned forwards, wanting him to see that she was here for him and would listen to anything he had to say if it would help him to find sleep again. He needed to rest and heal.
“Katya’s death.†He kept looking at the fire.
An ache settled in her chest, burning in her heart. Who was Katya? The way Aleksandr had said that name with so much pain but an edge of affection too, a spark of love in his eyes, hurt Elise. She looked away, trying to rearrange her jumbled feelings into some semblance of order. Katya. Who was this woman whom Aleksandr had loved?
She felt his eyes come to settle on her but refused to look at him when she was struggling with her emotions. Aleksandr was a prince, a vampire of the noblest bloodline, and handsome. She was under no illusion that he hadn’t been with many women in his life.
But the thought that he might have loved one of them, that he loved her still, made her want to leave the room, made her want to surrender any foolish hope she had of ever claiming Aleksandr’s heart, and made her want to cry.
“Elise?†he whispered and she blinked away her tears, hiding them from him. She started when his fingers grazed her cheek, a light caress that both warmed and chilled her heart.
Taking a deep breath, she brushed his hand away, switched off her feelings and looked at him.
He sat with his hand outstretched to her, an edge of pain in his stormy eyes. He was still a moment, and then curled the hand she had swept aside into a fist and withdrew into his chair, the hurt in his expression increasing. He had wanted to comfort her and she had pushed him away, even when she had been craving the contact between them and the reassurance.
“You seem to take offence at the sound of my sister’s name,†he said in a quiet voice and Elise felt like a fool. “Do not worry so much. There is room in my dark heart for you both.â€
She blushed, her cheeks burning hotter than if the sun had touched her. Room in his heart? Her gaze leapt from the flames to his, wanting to search it for the truth behind those low spoken words, but he looked away from her, staring back into the fire.
“Ekatarina Nemov.†She needed to be sure that they were talking about the same person and that his sister’s death was the reason he was so upset.
“Katya to myself and my brother, Vasiliy.†Aleksandr was quiet a moment and then sighed. “I wish he had not come. He is too much like her. When I see him, I cannot help seeing her too.â€
Elise waited for him to continue. She didn’t know the full story behind his sister’s death. Over the centuries it had become legend more than anything else and Aleksandr had begun to slip into legend with it. But he was here now, sitting in front of her, a man so vulnerable and in so much visible pain that she wondered what burden his heart bore because of his sister’s death.
“My sister was younger than me,†he whispered in a broken voice. The golden light of the fire warmed his features but all she could feel in him was cold and hurt. “She was beautiful, kind, kept away from the violence of our species because she was female. She had never killed.â€
He looked at her now, his grey eyes open and earnest, as though beseeching her to hear his words and know the truth in them.
“It had been her duty to maintain the peace and be seen as the example for our people to follow… delicate and like a human… not a beast inside. Not like me.â€
Elise didn’t think he was a beast. Not yet. She moved forwards, perched on the edge of her seat. She wanted to reach across to him, to take his hand again and hold it, to comfort him.
“I was taught to fight, in case need arose, and had learned to kill. I had the skill to protect my people in war if needed, but I failed to protect her.†Aleksandr looked away again, at the fire, tears lining his eyes. They were gone when he blinked, erased as easily as his emotions. She couldn’t feel his hurt now, couldn’t sense anything from him.
“What happened to her?â€
“There was a raid on the palace. I tried to get to her but I was not fast enough. The hunter killed my sister and fled. She was defenceless, Elise. He slaughtered her maids and the guards that protected her. He butchered my sister.†Aleksandr closed his eyes and clenched his fists so tightly that his knuckles burned white. A wave of anger washed over Elise and her brow furrowed when she felt the sharp raw pain that laced it. “I could not save my sister and my heart could not rest until I had avenged her.â€
“You hunted him.†It wasn’t a question. The answer was in his eyes when they met hers. Violence echoed in their depths. He had looked that way when he had killed the hunters in the city.
“I soaked my hands in blood and left my family so my actions did not taint their ideals or their name.â€
In that moment, Elise felt as though she was looking at a different person. Not the Aleksandr she knew but the one that she feared. He was so distant as he looked at her, and as he spoke, and she was afraid that he was seeking his death and that the duty he’d undertaken weighed too heavily on him.
He had bloodied his hands and he was paying the price for it. His need to avenge his sister was turning him into a beast. How many more times could he kill before he succumbed to the darkness within him and devolved into the demon their ancestors had been? How close to the edge of the abyss was he now?
How could so noble a man have lost himself to the dark urges living within them all?
Elise knew of his time as their heir prince and that he had been a good man, one worthy of leading their people into a new era of peace. He had been strong, and had upheld the ideals of his family, preaching pacifism over violence and setting an example. The example he had become now was a cautionary tale to all vampires. Follow the rules of the monarchy or face the future Aleksandr had chosen. How could he do this to himself?
Wasn’t he afraid of what his future held for him?
Aleksandr sighed and looked into the fire again, his gaze distant and thoughtful. She didn’t press him to speak to her because she couldn’t find her voice when she wanted to ask him things that might hurt or anger him. She wanted to know more about his sister and what had driven him to forsake his family and lead a life of danger and darkness. She wanted him to show his eyes to her so she could see the truth in them and see once and for all that he was treading the fine line between humanity and depravity.
She wanted to take his hand and promise him that she would find a way to fix him, to redeem him and stop him from slipping into the endless black within his heart and soul.
It was ridiculous to think she could do such a thing, but she wanted it with all of her heart. She would find a way to save him. He didn’t deserve to become evil, not when he had only been doing something honourable and beautiful in trying to avenge his sister’s needless horrible death.
“What do you think while you look at me with such intent, Elise?†He looked at her out of the corner of his eye.
“Only that it is a noble thing you have done and that your people are grateful that you have chosen to protect us and have put us before even your own safety.â€
He scoffed and waved her away. “Noble? Everyone believes me to be that way. I do not think it very noble to choose to bloody my hands, and I am no longer fit for the crown or to lead my people.â€
“I still believe you are noble, Aleksandr.â€
His eyes widened. Was the disbelief in their grey depths because she had used his name or because of what she had said? She did believe that he was noble. No other man she knew would do such a thing for a blood relative.
“You still think like a prince in your heart,†she said and he frowned now, his eyes darkening with it. “Do not deny it, because I have seen it is true. You say that you hunt with vengeance on your mind but you go after other vampire hunters too, ones not related to the man who killed your sister. That is noble, and you do it with the intention of protecting those weaker than you.â€
He looked away from her, as though ashamed to hear her words about him. He deserved praise for what he had done and the sacrifices he made, even if he didn’t think he did. He needed to hear that he helped his people, made their world a safer place to live in and saved many from having to resort to violence.
The monarchy, his family, had chosen their path to saving their people and Aleksandr had chosen his. Both of them did so to protect their kin from the darkness and the hunters.
“You are noble, Aleksandr. I will say it however many times it takes for you to believe it.â€
He rubbed his shoulder and she watched his hand, following his fingers and checking to see whether the wounds were aggravating him. He didn’t look as though he was in pain.
She glanced at the blood canister and glass on the side table and then back at him, her gaze catching on his bare stomach and the mark above his right hip. No matter what he thought, he was still worthy of the name of Nemov. He still protected their kind.
“Would you do something for me, Elise… something which would help me?†he whispered and she dragged her eyes up to meet his. He looked uncertain and then held her gaze. “You may say no if you wish.â€
She didn’t even know what he was going to ask her so she was hardly going to say no outright. There was a nervous edge to his expression. It was strange to see such a strong person so vulnerable. What did he want to ask that made him look this way?
“Speak,†she said, wanting to hear what it was he had to ask of her.
He hesitated a moment, looking around the room, and then held her gaze again.
“Will you come to me?†He held his left hand out to her and her eyes fell there. “Allow me to hold you… only for a while… I only need to hold you.â€
Nerves skittered over her skin and her heart fluttered against her ribs. She couldn’t see how it would help him and she wasn’t sure if she trusted him to only hold her as he’d said. He kept his hand outstretched to her and she stared at it, feeling as though he was reaching for more than just her hand.
He was reaching for her heart and she was afraid that he would take it if she went to him, and she would never feel again when he left her.
Just as he was about to take his hand back, Elise placed hers into it and bravely stood on trembling legs. She swallowed, her throat and mouth dry. It was insane of her to do this, to place herself into his arms, but he needed her and she couldn’t deny him. She wanted to comfort him and ease his pain. She wanted to take away his nightmare and give him peace.
She needed to.
Her heartbeat quickened when he drew her towards him and leaned back into the chair. She took a deep breath to steady her nerves and then eyed his lap. The look in Aleksandr’s beautiful grey eyes stilled her heart. There was so much affection in them now and no trace of the pain or the loneliness that had been there before. Seeing the effect she had on him bolstered her courage and she sat on his left thigh, facing the fire, and curled her legs around so her calves rested against his shins. He looked at her as though she was an angel for coming to him, a merciful creature to have given him this moment he so clearly needed with her.
She wasn’t afraid when he placed his left arm around her waist and held her side. It warmed her to feel his hand against her, his thumb lightly brushing her skin through the black camisole.
“No one will disturb us.†He continued to look up at her, into her eyes, so close that she could easily kiss him if she wanted to.
And she did want to.
But this moment wasn’t about such things.
She was here to offer him comfort only, to give him the reassurance he craved and to give him back his strength.
“I just need to hold you for a while, if that is alright with you?†he whispered and Elise nodded.
She swallowed again when he drew her close and rested his head against her chest and her shoulder. His breath was soft against her chest, his arm gentle around her waist. He sighed and she felt him relax, sensed the calm that washed through him and chased away his pain. This close to him, skin-on-skin, it was easier for her to sense his feelings, especially when he was letting her as she knew he was. He had opened his heart to her, allowing her to catch a glimmer of his emotions. He feared his dreams of his sister. The pain he felt was strong, buried deep in his heart, and Elise wanted to make it disappear for him even when she knew that was impossible.
Not even the death of the hunter that he sought or the achievement of his vengeance would erase the hurt Aleksandr felt when he thought about his sister. The way that he had spoken of her, with so much affection and so much pain, made that clear. He would never forgive the hunter’s bloodline for what it had done to her. Elise could understand his feelings, felt a similar way about someone she had lost. That pain would never go away. It would haunt her for the rest of her life and she had to live with it.
He sighed again and his head became heavy against her shoulder. He wasn’t sleeping but it felt as though he might be. He was a dead weight on her chest but Elise didn’t mind. She was only glad that she was making him feel better.
It was strange to be this close to him and not have him try something with her. A fragment of her heart had been convinced that he would attempt to touch her or kiss her. She started to relax too, glad that he wasn’t going to push her into doing anything. She was too weak for him. If he kissed her, she wouldn’t be able to resist him, no matter how much sense told her to. Her heart would always overrule her head.
Aleksandr’s breathing slowed, becoming deep and gentle. She liked the feel of him against her, holding her close and sharing a quiet moment with her.
Elise placed her arms around him and stroked the bandages covering his right shoulder and arm. She placed her hand against his back, trying to sense whether he was healing again now.
“Do not worry so much,†he sighed against her skin and raised his right hand and caught hold of her left. He brought it away from his shoulder and, for a moment, she feared he was going to kiss it but then he held it against his chest, over his heart. “You are disturbing me with it.â€
She didn’t mean to. It was difficult to control her emotions when they were in each other’s arms, as though they were lovers. Aleksandr wanted them to be that. She was tempted to probe his feelings for her and see what they were, but resisted and pushed away her worry instead. He would be able to sense her feelings clearly, far more easily than she could sense his. To him, it would be as though he was feeling everything that she was. His age granted him such power over her, one that he would always hold because of the difference in their years. If she lived to be his age, he would still be able to sense things more easily than her. His power would never stop growing stronger.
He sighed when she touched his neck with her right hand and before she could stop herself, she was stroking the soft short hair at the back of his head to soothe him.
The flames mesmerised her along with the feel of his hair beneath her fingers and his arm around her waist. It was quiet and peaceful, and she wasn’t afraid. She felt so incredibly comfortable with him and a part of her wished it wouldn’t end.
It was nice to have such a strong man need her and rely on her. It made her feel strong too.
She liked how he held her, and how he felt against her, and that he genuinely seemed to need her. She ran her fingers through his hair and cradled his head to her, wishing he could find in her arms the sleep that eluded him. She would watch over him and keep the bad dreams away if she could. She would make them stay away forever.
Elise lowered her lips and barely stopped herself from kissing the top of his head. She breathed him in instead, taking his warm scent down into her lungs and holding it there. There was power in his scent, strength that she had sensed the moment they had met. He had let her defeat him then and she wasn’t sure why. She had never thought to ask him and now didn’t seem like the right time.
She sighed, tilted her head to one side, and rested her right cheek on her fingers where they held the top of his head. He moaned softly and held her closer. Elise smiled and stared into the fire, losing track of the minutes as they held each other.
Just as she was beginning to have to fight off the urge to fall asleep, Aleksandr stirred and released her. She blinked several times and focused her drowsy senses.
“I am sorry, I have kept you here all day,†he said in a gravelly voice that betrayed his fatigue.
Elise shrugged and then rubbed her eyes. She looked down at his right hand where it rested over her left knee. It was strange how quickly she had grown used to being so intimate with him. She had been ready to sleep this way, curled up on his lap and in his arms. It had felt like the safest place in the world.
“Thank you.†He reached up and swept the backs of his right fingers across her cheek, a slight frown marring his brow. “You are tired. Sleep. I will take a different guard tonight.â€
Those words forced any shred of tiredness from her. “I don’t understand. You said we were off duty tonight. You’re not hunting?â€
He nodded. “I must.â€
The thought of him going into the city with the other females in his guard tightened her insides.
“I’m not tired,†she said so fast that it was almost one word. “It is my duty to guard you.â€
“That will not do. You are tired.†He stroked her face and smiled at her, his grey eyes brightening with it. “You forget I can see straight through you.â€
She hadn’t forgotten, just as she hadn’t forgotten that he had seen things in her blood too, things that he wouldn’t tell her about. Did he know her feelings for him and her fears? She wasn’t sure whether she wanted him to know them or not. If he did, would he treat her differently, would he be more careful with the heart that he was stealing from her?
“You are tired too, Sir.†She quickly corrected herself when he glared at her. “Aleksandr.â€
“We are far too intimate now for such formal terms.†He smiled, his hand falling to her knee again, a not so subtle reminder that she was still perched on his thigh. His gaze held hers. “Elise.â€
She blushed at the way he’d whispered her name, saying it with such force and passion that her mind raced to imagine him speaking it against her skin between kisses and into her ear as he made love with her.
“You must rest. I have told the guard that we are off duty tonight and they are excited because of the ball our master is arranging for your brother and you… you must rest…†Elise placed her hand against his injured shoulder, looked at it and then back into his eyes. “You are not healed yet.â€
Aleksandr took hold of her hand, curling his fingers around so their tips grazed her palm. His grip was strong but gentle. The hard look in his eyes softened and he nodded.
“I will rest, but only because you have asked me to.â€
It shocked Elise that he would take such a command from her and she couldn’t make out whether he was being genuine and had accepted it to ease her mind, or whether he had done so only to get into her good book and make her surrender to him. She didn’t want it to be the latter. Couldn’t he see that she hated the thought of him making her weak like the other females? She had never been reliant on the males of her species and it wasn’t going to be any different now that Aleksandr was in her heart. She could take care of herself. She didn’t want to change. She didn’t want him to make her into something that she wasn’t and could never be.
“Come,†he said and she stood, leaving the comfort of his lap and quickly distancing herself. The look he gave her said that he’d noticed her change in attitude towards him.
He looked as though he was going to say something about it and then picked up his white shirt where it lay crumpled on the couch. He slipped his arms into it but didn’t bother to do up the buttons.
Elise wasn’t sure what to do. She considered apologising for hitting him before he had left for Budapest, but now wasn’t the right time. It would have to wait, and the longer it did the worse she felt about it.
She would return to the second floor, shower and dress, and think about everything before finding the right point at which to apologise to him. She couldn’t do it now, not when she was wrestling with her desire to kiss him. She couldn’t let that happen again, at least not until she was sure of a few things and could no longer resist the temptation.
Elise went to back towards the door but Aleksandr closed the gap between them and took hold of her shoulder. Her gaze immediately fell to his lips, taking in their sensual curves and she was unable to ignore her growing desire. Who was she kidding? If he tried to kiss her, she would be all over him.
“Get some sleep. The sun is only just setting. There is time before the ball.†His hand slipped from her shoulder.
Elise nodded and her gaze tracked him across the room. He went into his bedroom and closed the door.
Now she was confused. He had held her without trying anything, had shown a side of himself that she was sure no one else saw, and now he had left her in his reception room and had gone to bed alone.
What had happened to the Aleksandr who had pursued her relentlessly, who had let the entire world know that he wanted her, and who had kissed her in this room?
If it hadn’t been for the events of today, she would have been convinced that he didn’t want her anymore. But he did. His desire was unchanged, so what was different?
A quiet voice said that it was what he’d seen in her blood.
Elise stared at the dark wooden double doors, trying to sense him on the other side.
What had he seen?
She had half a mind to knock on the doors and demand to know. It wouldn’t get her anywhere though. He wasn’t going to tell her.
Elise went to the door that led onto the corridor, opened it, and paused. The moment she was dressed, she was going to come back and apologise for hitting him and she was going to find out why he was different.
She had to know.
Because the new Aleksandr had her falling for him faster than ever.
In fact, she was in love with him.
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Heart of Darkness
Felicity Heaton
A vampire prince on a four hundred year old mission to avenge his murdered sister…
Aleksandr Nemov won’t stop until the last of the vampire hunter’s progeny is wiped from the Earth. Each kill has stolen a piece of his humanity, pushing him towards the black abyss all vampires hold within their hearts. Now he is teetering on the edge, close to devolving into a beast, and time is running out as he tracks the last hunter to Prague. There he finds a beautiful woman who could be his one chance for salvation, but is it already too late for him?
A vampire guard who will do whatever it takes to protect those she loves…
Elise is dedicated to her duty. It’s the only thing she has left. All that changes when she meets Aleksandr in Prague and her master grants him permission to stay at her bloodline’s mansion. She knows all about Aleksandr but none of it prepares her for how she feels when the legendary prince’s hunt becomes one for her heart. Elise battles him with all of her strength but can she stop herself from falling for the handsome hunter? When he reveals the depth of the corruption in his soul, will she have the strength to face the pain in her past and do whatever it takes to save him?
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Interview with Hyperion from my Vampires Realm series
It’s time to bring in a vampire who has captured the hearts of many readers despite not being the hero of any of my books yet… that’s right… one of my two great and wonderfully mysterious vampires is here to chat with me.
Hyperion is probably the most popular vampire in my Vampires Realm series. I get a lot of people asking about him and when he’s going to get his own story. It’s so tempting to just keep having him appear in other heroes and heroines novels in the series because I don’t want his quirky personality to change due to him finally having his love by his side. I’m not sure his personality would change, but he might be a little distracted by her and not amuse himself with everyone else’s love lives as much. lol.
As I’ve said above, Hyperion doesn’t have his own love story yet. I did write a short piece about his origins and you can read it on my Vampires Realm website: http://www.vampiresrealm.com/freestory_eternitythebeginning.php
Now, I’ve been waiting to interview this man for a long time, so on with the show…
REMEMBER: If you want Hyperion to answer your question, leave it in a comment on the post and I’ll pass it on to him and he’ll answer it for you.
(It feels as though I’ve been waiting forever for this moment, and that I’m going to have to wait a little longer. Minutes tick by. I tap my pen against the clipboard with my notes on it. Maybe he’s going be a no-show. The door creaks open and the man himself enters, casually dressed in a loose black shirt that has the top few buttons undone, revealing bronzed skin and the valley between his chest muscles. He saunters across the room to the black velvet armchair and drapes himself in it, crosses his black-clad legs and smiles at me, revealing slightly extended canines. His purple eyes are beautiful in the firelight, mesmerising, but I know better than to fall into their trap)
HYPERION: When will you write my story, little lady? (the mixture of accents in his voice make his birth nationality hard to place but I know he was born over three thousand years ago in Egypt)
FH: Soon, I think. A few people want to read it. Every appearance you make in the series intrigues them a little more. I think you have a fan club. I’m tempted to change that to ‘fang club’ as I think these readers are just longing to imagine they’re your heroine.
HYPERION: (smiles slowly) It can be arranged. I am always looking for fresh entertainment. The days can feel so long when I have so much on my mind and cannot sleep. I wouldn’t say no to a little midday snack.
FH: Hmm, but I have the impression that’s all they would be to you. You flirt so well with everyone but would you ever go further than a quick bite?
HYPERION: (his eyes darken and he looks away to the fireplace on his right, causing his irises to reflect silver in the light) Perhaps once upon a time I would have. I am afraid I would have to disappoint any ladies looking for more than just the pleasure of my bite now. My heart belongs to another.
FH: Tell me something I don’t know. Things have certainly been busy for you recently though, so that must have occupied you to some degree?
HYPERION: (he turns back to me and smiles again) Most entertaining. It does amuse me when these vampire hunters believe they are any kind of match for my kind. I am still disputing certain outcomes of the event at the Venia mansion with Winter though. I am sure he is lying. There isn’t the slightest possibility that he beat me.
FH: You’re a sore loser. Does that come with age?
HYPERION: (laughs) No… my cavalier attitude and the right to pry into others’ relationships came with age. I have to amuse myself somehow. If you lived for three thousand years, you would likely end up the same. I do not think any would dare dispute my right either.
FH: They’re all scared of you. You could probably kill most of the vampires in the seven bloodlines with just a flick of your finger. There aren’t any who can stand against your strength.
HYPERION: Now, there you are wrong. There is my beloved sister.
FH: That is true. Ineru is probably the one vampire in the world who could kill you with only a few words.
HYPERION: Not the only vampire. There is another. Women… they are man’s only weakness.
FH: Very true. We can destroy men without flinching. Your sex isn’t as strong as you think.
HYPERION: Your species isn’t as strong as it thinks.
FH: Touché. I’ll give you that one. So, do you have any other adventures planned?
HYPERION: I do indeed, and I think I shall need you to write them down for me. It is high time that my story was told. I grow tired of waiting… you are the only human in the world who can keep me waiting… perhaps the only person too. No vampire would dare. Not even Ineru.
FH: I’ll write it. Don’t worry. I do need to write your sister’s story and also Lilith’s sister’s story too, and I think those should come first.
HYPERION: You place two stories before mine. I grant you leave to write my sister’s story first, but to write Lilith’s sister’s story before mine… sheer madness, my little human. Why does she get precedence over me?
FH: Because her story came first. So shush, behave yourself. I know that your story sort of started shortly after Winter’s story, but it hasn’t ended yet and it’s easier to write a story when it has ended and I have both hero and heroine present to recount it for me. Win your heroine and then we’ll talk about writing your story, okay?
HYPERION: (frowns) Fine, if you insist it be that way, then I will do all in my power to make it happen. It will certainly be an adventure worth writing down though. I can promise you that.
FH: I’m sure readers are glad to hear it. They probably expect nothing less from you and I think every time you appear in a book, they’re secretly hoping you’ve found someone to love and they’ll get to read about it.
HYPERION: It isn’t a case of finding someone to love. I have already found her, but I thought she was lost to me. It is more a case of finding where my love has gone.
FH: Either way, people want to read about it. I’m sure your ‘fang club’ will be desperate to read it when I’ve written it.
HYPERION: Then perhaps we should move things along and I can see about making my story happen.
FH: All of you vampires are so impatient. I have a few silly questions that I like to ask the people I’m interviewing. Firstly, what’s your favourite colour?
HYPERION: Purple. It wasn’t a colour I was familiar with when human. The first time I saw it in Ineru’s eyes, it became my favourite colour. She has beautifully clear purple eyes.
FH: Sometimes you sound a little too in love with your sister. (he scowls at me) And moving swiftly on… your favourite smell?
HYPERION: The desert at night when the sand is cooling and the wind carries the faint scent of water and greenery. It has stayed with me for three millennia.
FH: Your favourite possession?
HYPERION: My ravens.
FH: Favourite thing to do?
HYPERION: Stargaze with my sister. We often did it back in Egypt. There you could see so many stars. I think we used to do it because it made us both feel that not everything had changed. The world was still the same and the stars were still the same. It made it easier to cope with what happened to me, and what I had done to Ineru.
FH: And finally, what’s your favourite time of year?
HYPERION: Winter. The nights are longer in Russia then and very clear. Ineru finds it easier to get away from her place of exile too because the guards are less inclined to leave their houses and check on her.
FH: You really do care a lot about your sister. I can understand it though. She’s been with you for three thousand years and was your only companion until you found your bloodline. Do you still feel bad about turning her?
HYPERION: (shakes his head) No. It is what she wanted and I don’t think I could have coped with watching her wither and die. I don’t think I would have made it past my first decade as a vampire without her at my side.
FH: That’s very sweet. You’re a good brother to her. Now, I’ll let you get on with that business of finding the woman you love. Good luck!
HYPERION: (nods) Thank you. I shall bring back a story worthy of your skill with words.
FH: Get on with you. Compliments get you nowhere.
(Hyperion smiles, rises from the seat, and bows in a way that has me staring down his half-open shirt. Whoever has captured this man’s heart is one lucky lady!)
Ah, I think I’m more in love with him than ever. What about you?
REMEMBER: If you want Hyperion to answer your question, leave it in a comment on the post and I’ll pass it on to him and he’ll answer it for you.

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Match the Quotes Game – Vampires Realm
I’ve played this game before on my blog with the Vampire Erotic Theatre series books and it was really fun, so I’m playing it twice this weekend, once for the Vampires Realm series and once for the Her Angel series.
Today it’s the Vampires Realm Match the Quotes game. All of the quotes are taken from Masquerade, the next book in the series. It will be out in May.
HOW TO ENTER
All you have to do to enter is leave a comment matching the right character to the right quote. Please leave a single comment with your name, email address, and the name of the character followed by the quote number. Only one comment per person please.
Each correct match you make counts as 1 entry into the prize draw.
COMPETITION CLOSED
Winners have been announced in a post on Friday 13th April.
So, let the game begin…
CHARACTERS AND THEIR QUOTES:
Vivek – “Because I have never seen anything as beautiful as you, and I do not want another man to lay a single finger on you. If I could, I would keep you in my arms all night… or perhaps for the rest of my life.â€
Dmitri – “I did not catch your name, little man. Why do you not come down here and we see who insulted who?â€
Hyperion – “She is returning. School your expression, my young apprentice, or she will see that you are madder than hell with your rival rather than just sense it.â€
Tynan – “I think I have sufficiently embarrassed you both. Lord Hyperion would be proud of me.â€
Sophis – “What the Devil have you got yourself into this time?â€
Five characters, five quotes… five chances to win!

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My favourite scene from Love Immortal
I have the hard task of choosing my favourite scenes from some of my books to share with you this weekend. It might sound like a lot of fun, but sometimes there is more than one scene that I really love in a book and choosing between them can be very tricky. Add to that the fact that I can’t choose a scene that gives something major about the plot away and it becomes doubly tricky!
My first favourite scene is from a book that provides a perfect example of that. Love Immortal has many scenes that I really love and would like to share with you, but I had to pick just the one from this epic vampire romance novel, so here it is…
My Favourite Scene From…
Love Immortal
Lauren paused when she heard the door close. Hot water bounced of her hands where they were frozen against her head, halfway through rinsing the shampoo out of her hair. She focused and was surprised when she could feel there was someone in her bedroom. It was similar to how she had felt the night that Julian had saved her—an indescribable sensation in the pit of her stomach. That time it had said she was in danger. This time it was the opposite. A strange aura of calm washed over her.
Julian.
The bathroom door was open. She hadn’t been expecting company, but she wasn’t about to leave the shower now that company had walked in uninvited. It seemed like forever since she’d had a shower and the hot water running over her body felt too good to give up. She was willing to risk something happening. She didn’t have a perfect figure like Astra, or come anywhere close to her in the beauty stakes, but she wasn’t ashamed of her figure either. Although some bits needed work in the toning department, she was still the average weight for her five feet seven inch frame. Would Julian think she had an attractive body if he caught a glimpse?
A butterfly didn’t jig in her stomach, a whole army of them rushed around, sending it spinning like a hurricane. It wouldn’t settle, not when her thoughts were fixed on their current favourite topic—Julian.
He’d been a perfect gentleman so far and didn’t seem the type who would take advantage of a situation like this, even if she did want him to.
“How long have you known these Ghosts?†Lauren hollered over the noise of the shower.
Silence. She listened for a while and started to wonder if she had been wrong about him being in her room.
“Five years.†His voice was so clear and loud that she jumped.
He was in the bathroom.
Her heart started at a canter and rapidly increased to a gallop. She breathed deep to slow it again, knowing that Julian could hear it. He didn’t mention the change in it this time.
Lauren stared at the white shower curtain. Where in the room was he? She shook her head. Her heart was never going to settle if she thought about him. Leaning back, she tilted her head under the water. The hot beat of it against her hair quickly stole her attention away from Julian. It was exquisite, easing all of the tension from her body and re-invigorating her.
She let out a long low groaning sigh of satisfaction.
Her cheeks burned with the blush that covered every naked inch of her. Her attention shifted back to Julian. Suddenly, she was very aware of the fact that she was nude and alone with him. Her mind leapt forwards, imagining the possibilities. Passionate, hot images of him in the shower with her, their naked bodies entwined and his lips on her throat, sent fire sweeping through her body and her heart pounded out a rapid rhythm.
She really needed to get a life. Julian had barely looked at her, let alone shown much interest. The small more courageous part of her said that he might show a little interest if she accidentally on purpose tugged the shower curtain aside enough to flash him, or fell in the bath so he’d come to check on her.
Lauren ignored it.
“Can you hand me a towel?†She squeezed the water out of her hair with one hand and turned the shower off with the other.
A white fluffy towel greeted her when she turned around, Julian’s arm sticking through the gap between the shower curtain and the tiles. Lauren went to take it from him and then froze when she saw the scars on his wrist.
An incredible urge to bite him rushed through her, sweeping up from below and engulfing her. It was exhilarating.
She snatched the towel and wrapped it around herself. It was wrong. She didn’t want to think about the blood-drinking aspect of the awakening. She wasn’t sure how she was going to take to it. The thought repulsed her. Her body said different. The sudden desire to bite Julian had left it warm in all the good places. She tucked the end of the towel in, making a fuss of it to distract her from such disturbing thoughts, and then pulled the curtain aside. Julian looked up, most of his face still hidden beneath his coat collar. He was so close to her.
Fire flickered in his blue eyes. A hunger that both confused and pleased her. When he looked at her like that, she felt beautiful. She just didn’t know what he felt.
Lauren stepped out of the bath and walked over to the sink. She grabbed another towel and rubbed her near shoulder-length red hair. Julian stood behind her, reflected in the cabinet mirror. Not a vampire then. In all the stories she’d read, vampires didn’t have reflections. She looked at him, meeting his gaze in the mirror and studying his face. She longed to see what he looked like. His eyes were stunning under the bright light of the white bathroom, so pale and icy but holding such incredible warmth. He looked away towards the bath. The long black strands of his hair obscured his eyes but she didn’t miss the way they narrowed and his pupils widened. She swallowed. Had he sensed the way she’d reacted to the sight of his marks? He’d said that he could sense her. Could he detect such things? Did he know that she wanted to bite him, and that just the thought of it bordered on arousing?
He stepped to one side when she turned around and she walked past him into her bedroom. She picked up her backpack from the white armchair in the corner, determined to distract herself from thoughts of biting Julian and acting on her desires, and placed it down on the bed. Heat touched her cheeks as she pulled a fresh pair of knickers out of her bag and thought about the fact that Julian had packed them for her. He’d touched her underwear. She cleared her throat and quickly pulled some clothes out and set them down on the blue bedcover. They were all of her favourites. She was glad of that. They made everything feel a little more normal.
Lauren sat on the bed beside them. When she had gone through her bag this morning, she’d found her mobile phone. She’d checked it then and again this evening. It was dead. She glanced at Julian where he stood by the bathroom door and then looked at the three sets of drawn blue curtains to her left. She wanted to ask Julian if she could call her friends to let them know that she was safe, but already knew what his answer would be. He would tell her that it might place both herself and her friends in danger, and a part of her knew that he was right, but she needed to contact them. They would be worried about her by now. She worked with one of her friends, Vicky, pushing paper in an office, and was sure that when she hadn’t shown up for work, Vicky would have tried to call her.
“Something is troubling you.†The sound of his voice still sent a shiver of delight through her. Was it a Greek accent? It had probably changed throughout the ages but he still sounded foreign to her. Exotic.
“You said that you were a commander of some men.†It seemed like a better topic of conversation than her friends. She would find a way to check on them and let them know that she was alright.
“Arcadians,†he said and moved across the room. He stopped a few feet short of her, tall and towering, menacing in a way but not one that frightened her. She liked his presence, the way she could sense him when he was near to her, and the way that made her feel. His strength, his power, radiated through her. It wasn’t just comforting or calming. It was more than that. It stirred desire in her. Everything about him was alluring. Everything about him said that he wouldn’t hurt her.
He would protect her, just as he’d promised. Her knight in shining armour.
“My protectors.†Her eyes met his. The fire in them grew stronger. He narrowed them on her and she swore they had fallen lower, towards her towel, for just a brief second. She stood and the action put her close to him, to within a foot. Heat spread through her along with a desire to lick her lips.
Her fingers twitched again, desperate to lower his collar. She was strong enough to do this. She stepped past him instead and when she turned back around, Julian was sitting on the edge of the bed, his sword lying beside his hip. She crossed the room to the three tall windows and opened the middle set of curtains a crack. It was still dark out but it was heading towards dawn. Where had Julian gone tonight? She glanced at him and then went to the armchair and dragged it across the room so it was facing him. She sat in it and stared at him.
“Illia was given two hundred men, her army. Arcadians have always worshipped Zeus, and my men and I have always worshipped Selene. It was an honour to be chosen by Zeus and Selene to protect Illia. I was honoured to serve my goddess, Selene.†Julian paused and glanced at the window and then back at her. The fire in his eyes had faded but reignited again while he looked at her, his gaze boring into hers. “Know that they fought and died for you, just as I died for you, and continue to fight for you. We lived to serve you.â€
Lauren swallowed hard, trying to keep her emotions in check. It was strange to hear someone say that they had died for her. It made her heart flutter. She reminded herself that Julian had died for Illia. He hadn’t died for anyone else since then. Would he go that far for anyone other than Illia herself? Would he die to protect her?
“And I was your commander?†she said with a quiver in her voice.
“You are my commander.â€
She swallowed again.
Julian frowned at her, his gaze dropping to her chest the same way it had done in the hall when they had first come to Ghost, and then rising to her face again. He was listening to her heartbeat. It was off the scale at the thought that he might die to protect her, and at the thought of having to be his commander.
Whoever she’d been back then, she wasn’t that person now. Her entire body felt tight at the thought of having to make decisions that could get someone killed—that could get Julian killed.
“I don’t want to be,†she admitted and felt better for it but worse at the same time. There was a glimmer of something horribly like disappointment in Julian’s eyes. It faded an instant later, erased like all his other emotions were when they began to show. “I’m not strong enough.â€
Meeting Julian and the others had made her painfully aware of that. She couldn’t compare to any of them. Even Piper, who feared monsters, desired to go into battle because of her faith in her fellow Ghosts and her sense of duty.
She was braver than Lauren.
Julian leaned forwards, his elbows coming to rest on his knees. She could see down his collar. The light was dull but she could see enough to tell that he was good looking. Her gaze darted to the lamp beside her bed. If she could just turn that on, she would see him properly at last. She would see that her instinct about him had been right.
He was more handsome than anyone she’d ever met.
Her heart skipped.
A soft look entered his eyes, his expression earnest and open.
“I am your guardian, Lauren,†Julian said in such a calm and gentle tone that the tight feeling inside her began to melt away. She liked how he said her name, pronouncing it slowly and carefully as though he was savouring it. “I would bleed myself dry if you willed it. I am yours to command. It is not a matter of strength, but if you believe it is, then use mine until you find your own.â€
Her heart thudded now, hard and heavy against her ribs. God, could this man be any more wonderful? All of her tension melted and her bones began to follow it. Warmth glowed inside her, happiness that this man believed in her even though he barely knew her. He believed that she was strong and she could feel the truth in his words. He would do everything he said. He would lend her his strength, and he would bleed himself dry for her.
“Would you really do that? Bleed yourself dry?†she said, captivated by the romantic notion of him doing anything for her, even risking his life. She wanted to hear him say it again.
His pale eyes narrowed slightly and she couldn’t take hers away from them. There was something about his eyes. She could look into them for forever. The world could end and she wouldn’t care if he were looking at her as he was now.
“If you desired it,†Julian husked. Tingles chased down her back, spreading through her. “My blood is yours. If you needed it all, you would have it.â€
Even when he talked about blood, she felt intensely drawn to him, willing to do whatever he asked if he could promise her eternity with him. It was crazy. Insane. She didn’t know enough about him to be dreaming that kind of future. Perhaps she’d been alone too long. But then, a man had never looked at her the way that Julian did.
With love.
With intense passion.
With need that said he might die without her.
If he kept looking at her like that, she would go through with the awakening just so he would continue.
“How much blood do I normally need… to awaken?â€
“Enough that I am too weak to protect you. Should Lycaon attack, we will be vulnerable.â€
Those words sent an unpleasant shiver through her and made her realise that she didn’t like the idea of Julian bleeding himself dry for her after all. She didn’t want him to die. She wanted him to live. Even the thought of her awakening weakening him left her cold. Had he learned from experience that they were vulnerable during her awakening?
“Is that why we’re here?†Lauren leaned forwards a little, her eyes still locked on his, searching them for answers.
He nodded. “It is. The Ghosts will protect us. They do not fully understand the situation, but they will not fail us should there be an attack.â€
“Would you fight?†That question made her stomach turn.
He nodded again, solemn and slow.
“Why?†She sat back in the armchair, horrified by the thought that he would risk his life for her by fighting when he was weak.
“Because my duty is to protect you.â€
Lauren didn’t have a response to that. He really did believe in his duty, and he’d carried it out for millennia. He knew his purpose in life and he was sticking to it. She knew hers and couldn’t decide whether to embrace it or bury her head in the sand.
It wouldn’t get her anywhere if she did that though. Burying your head in the sand didn’t stop death.
Julian was still looking at her with a soft tenderness in his eyes. How far would he go for his duty? She tried to think of a way to test him, to plumb the depths of his dedication to her.
“Would you do anything I asked?†Lauren said cautiously, looking deep into his eyes to check if he was telling the truth when he answered.
He nodded again. The look in his eyes hardened for a moment and a shadow of pain crossed them. Lauren leaned forwards again. What had he been thinking? She hated seeing hurt in his eyes. When he’d left her room this morning looking so sad, it had torn her apart inside with worry. Something terrible had happened to him in his past. It had to have to make him look at her as though he was dying inside.
“Even kill Lycaon?†she said.
“If I could.†His voice was low and as cautious as hers had been.
“If?â€
He took a deep breath and sighed. “It is forbidden. The death of Lycaon is your duty and yours alone to carry out. I cannot interfere in that battle, just as Lycaon cannot interfere with my existence. When Illia died, Zeus realised his mistake. Zeus did what he could to help you. He made me immortal as you wished, and he made me invulnerable to the threat of Lycaon, but he could not change your curse to make you invulnerable to Lycaon’s blade. He could only ensure that you would be reborn and that I would be there to awaken you.†Julian leaned closer, his eyes on hers, and then cast them downwards at the floor. “If I could spare you from the horrors of battle, I would.â€
There was an edge to his voice. Lauren could read between the lines. He wanted to protect her and it seemed duty didn’t have anything to do with it.
Lauren stared out at the night through the crack in the curtains of the middle window. The sky was growing light in the distance above the building opposite. The air in the room was heavy, hard to breathe, thick like tar in her lungs. She didn’t know what to say. Did Julian want to protect her for another reason? Was that reason anything to do with the way he looked at her sometimes?
Did it have anything to do with her, or was there more to her reincarnation than she knew?
“Am I always the same when you meet me?†she said slowly, unsure of whether she wanted to know the answer to that question.
“Your instincts sometimes carry on,†he said in a distant tone. She continued to stare out of the window. “There is a reason you are drawn to swords and combat.â€
“A shinai is very different to a real sword… but when I’m facing my opponent in kendo, when I’m fighting, I feel a strange kind of peace, as though everything is right in the world. Is that my instincts too?†She glanced at his katana where it rested on the bed beside him. She’d never held one before. How was she supposed to fight with a sword when she was used to nothing more than a glorified bamboo stick?
“Perhaps. The principle of combat is the same in real life as it is in kendo, and I will train you.â€
Her gaze darted to him long enough to see he was looking at the sword now, and then went back to the window and the beginning of dawn.
“I will see to it that you can fight, Lauren. Do not fear.â€
The niggling feeling of doubt and fear in her stomach disappeared. She was sure that he would keep his word and teach her how to fight. She just wasn’t sure how good she would be at it. She was only at second grade level in kendo.
She pushed away her worries and watched the sky. The dawn was fast becoming beautiful, as peaceful as she felt inside. Pink traced the sky. Gold lined the scattered clouds.
“Do I always look the same?†It was the question she’d originally wanted to ask and the one that she feared the most.
“Yes.†His eyes were on her now. She could feel them. A blush touched her cheeks and she was glad that the low light would hide it from him.
“Sound the same?â€
“Yes, but the language is often different.â€
Lauren looked at him, her heart on the verge of falling into her stomach. It had risen so high, so far into her throat that the drop was dizzying, like plummeting down a rollercoaster.
Julian had mentioned that Illia had changed him. She had desired him to live. In her heart, Lauren knew what that meant. Illia had loved Julian.
Had Julian loved Illia?
Lauren was just a carbon copy, a replication of the original that he’d loved.
Her heart hit her feet. She frowned at the sky, trying to pretend that she found it interesting even though it had lost all its colour and warmth the moment she’d realised that all the looks Julian had given her were really about Illia.
She tried to say something but the words stuck in her throat. She coughed to clear it and then breathed deep in an attempt to steady herself so he wouldn’t hear the hurt in her voice when she spoke.
“Will I remember my past lives when I awaken?†Her voice was still tight. She feared that he would notice her change in feeling—her hurt. If he did, he didn’t mention it.
“I do not know.†His gaze was still on her. She could feel it and she wished she couldn’t. She wanted to make him leave. She ached for her old life—for the time when she’d been normal, not some reincarnated demi-goddess. “Sometimes you remember little things.â€
Lauren stared into the distance, hoping that she remembered nothing this time. The thought that she was continually reincarnated had begun to feel comforting but now it choked her. It made her feel small and insignificant. To Julian, she was just another Illia. It was probably instinct making her fall for him, not her real feelings.
She was such a fool.
She’d been an idiot to think that someone like Julian would really look at her that way. When he looked at her, he was looking at Illia. Well, whatever he believed, she wasn’t Illia. She didn’t know who that woman was, but she was sure that Illia had been strong and brave and everything that Lauren wasn’t.
Lauren wanted to laugh at herself but her gut twisted when she thought about Illia. She pressed her hand to it, surprised by the violent feeling. Jealousy had never hurt like this before.
Gentle fingertips against her jaw made her start. Heat danced around the spots they touched. Julian slowly brought her head around so she was facing him. Her gaze dropped to her bare feet. She couldn’t look at him now. If he saw her feelings, she didn’t know what she would do. Right now, she felt vulnerable and weaker than ever, and one wrong look from him could break her.
His fingers brushed through the strands of her wet hair, his caress tender and soft, very careful.
“You seem so different this time,†he whispered and her heart started at a pace, lodging itself in her throat and trembling. “Your hair…â€
“It’s dyed,†she said, eyes shooting to his.
“I know.†There was a faint hint of a smile in his shadowed face. Her insides flipped. What he said next made them jig and her head spin. “It suits you. It brings out warmth in you that I have never seen before.â€
Her eyes widened. Warmth that he’d never seen before? Were all her predecessors cold? Even Illia?
“I understand that this is difficult for you, Lauren. Each time you are so different, you react so differently, but it is always hard for you to come to terms with what is happening.†His fingers paused in her hair, resting gently against her scalp. His palm brushed her cheek and she was tempted to lean into it. “I should have reached you sooner. I am sorry that I took so long… and that because of me you have less time to make your decision.â€
There was such an earnest look in the depths of his pale blue eyes, tinted with regret, that Lauren found herself reaching up and covering his hand with hers, wanting to comfort him. Her fingers closed over his, pressing into his palm. His hand was so warm.
“How did you find me?â€
“I told you. I can sense things. That sense is strongest when it comes to you. It guides me to you.†He paused and drew a deep breath. This time, he didn’t sigh. The hurt was back in his eyes. “I normally find you faster, but I was… delayed.â€
Lauren knew better than to probe into that answer. Whatever the delay had been, it had pained him. As much as she wanted to know, she couldn’t ask. After the way he’d looked at her this evening, she never wanted to hurt him.
Because he already held a world of pain in his eyes.
His hand left hers and she sat back, again becoming aware that she was only wearing a towel, only now she didn’t care.
Lauren stared deep into Julian’s eyes, mesmerised by every dark fleck against palest blue. A sense of calm filled her, as though she’d found a haven in a storm and knew that she was safe at last. The things he’d told her lost their frightening edge. Everything seemed strangely normal.
Everything felt fine again.
Julian was immortal—a vampire of sorts. She’d lived thirty lifetimes and was on a mission to stop the king of werewolves before he managed to get revenge on the ancient Greek gods. Soon her latent abilities would awaken and she would become immortal again. Perfectly normal. Completely insane.
When she looked into Julian’s eyes, the world was right again. When she looked into his eyes, strength surged through her and she was ready to take on Lycaon and defeat him at last.
It felt so warm and quiet here with him, drifting through her life one breath at a time, one heartbeat after another.
Lauren frowned.
“Is the hypnotism thing a power of yours too?†It had to be a power. He hadn’t told her all of his abilities yet and she was sure that this was one of them.
“Hypnotism?†His left eyebrow rose and then they both knitted into a frown.
“Yeah. You did it the night we met and you’re doing it now. When I look into your eyes—†She cut herself off when it struck her that he wasn’t hypnotising her. There was another possibility. She really did like him. First, the instant attraction, then the jealousy and now she turned into a daydreaming little girl whenever he looked into her eyes. She might as well just melt into a puddle around him. It was fortunate that she could speak or look at him at all without falling apart. Lauren chided herself. She was stronger than this. No man was about to reduce her to a quivering wreck. “Forget I said anything.â€
The ardent way he looked at her sent a blush blazing across her cheeks. Standing, she turned away and walked into the bathroom, taking her clothes with her.
She stopped in front of the mirror and looked in the reflection at Julian. Her stomach flipped. He was watching her, his gaze drifting down her back towards her legs.
Was she really different to Illia? Warmer? If anyone would know, it would be Julian.
When Julian looked at her, did he see her or did he see Illia?
She hoped that he saw her.
Because when she looked at Julian, she saw a man who was stealing her heart piece by piece.
This weekend, Love Immortal is available for only $0.99 / £0.99 / EUR 0,99 from Amazon Kindle and from Smashwords (using a code). That’s a $4 saving.
Love Immortal
Felicity Heaton
Rescued from werewolves by the most breathtaking man she’s ever seen, Lauren is dragged into the fight of her life and a dark world she never knew existed. There, she discovers that she’s the latest reincarnation of a goddess and must drink the blood of her immortal protector, Julian, in order to reawaken and continue her three thousand year old mission to defeat Lycaon, the original werewolf.
With the help of Julian and an organisation of people with supernatural abilities, Lauren fights for her life, their future and the fate of mankind against Lycaon and his deadly army, but can she succeed when Lycaon has killed all of her predecessors?
Can she crack the armour around Julian’s heart and seize her happily forever after with him? And can Julian bring himself to trust Lauren with the fragments of his heart after everything he’s been through?
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Interview with a demonic angel – Veiron
Over the course of my Birthday Bash weekend, I’m sitting down with some of my favourite heroes from my books to pick their brains about their stories and to get them talking about themselves. They will also be answering reader questions too!
If you want a hero to answer your question, leave it in a comment on the post and I’ll pass it on to the vampire / angel / demon / etc in question and he’ll answer it for you.
First of my interviews this weekend is with Veiron.
If you’re new to the Her Angel series or you haven’t read the latest book in the series, Her Guardian Angel, then you probably don’t know who Veiron is. I’ll paint you a pretty visual picture of this Hell’s angel. For starters, he’s a major character in Her Guardian Angel and also the hero of the next novel in the series, Her Demonic Angel.
Veiron was originally an angel of Heaven, but in the course of his current life he fell and pledged himself to the Devil instead. This caused part of his appearance to change. Veiron now has crimson feathered wings that match his long scarlet hair, and the red that can emerge in his dark eyes at times. He’s six-feet-plus of otherworldly beauty and often appears wearing his obsidian and crimson armour. At times when he loses his cool, his true appearance comes to the fore and his skin turns black, his eyes burn red and his teeth sharpen, and the feathers fall off his wings to reveal the dragon-like ones beneath. Veiron is dangerous, and has a vicious streak ten miles wide, but he’s also fiercely protective of those he cares about and would die to protect someone he loved.
Veiron’s book in the Her Angel series will be out in September 2012.
FH: I have Veiron here with me today. Firstly, can you tell us a little about yourself?
VEIRON: Charming. Gorgeous. Deadly. That’s me. (shrugs his broad shoulders) But I suppose you want more information than that. Why do I get the feeling this interview is going to leave me with a bitter taste in my mouth?
FH: You didn’t have to agree to it. Now, tell the lovely readers about yourself, or the bitterness you’ll be tasting in your mouth will be your blood after I sock you one.
VEIRON: (glowers) Are you threatening me, mortal female? I find it highly unlikely that you would hit me. You need me after all. You wouldn’t want to upset me. I’ll play along though because I do find you amusing. I was an angel. That’s what you want me to say, isn’t it? Shall I outline my fall from grace and every sordid thing I have done since? I was an angel… and yes, I fell. Worse than that, I pledged allegiance to the Devil and became one of his angels. Angels can fall and redeem themselves, but if they change sides and join with the Devil, there is no turning back until death claims them and they are reborn. When I die, I will return to Heaven. For me, that is not a comfort. I no longer do the Devil’s bidding. I have grown tired of him and the whole game between Heaven and Hell. I refuse to play anymore. I want to live a quiet life now and enjoy it. It is more difficult than you would think when you’re high on the hit list of both sides. (sighs) I won’t stop fighting for my freedom though, and I will have my vengeance.
FH: That was more of a moody statement of intent rather than talking about yourself, Veiron. You said you would play nice with me today. Now, answer my next question nicely. Your story is next in the series, but you had a role to play in the latest book too, Her Guardian Angel. Can you tell us about what happened in that story?
VEIRON: (huffs) Stage one of my revenge was successfully put into action. I have been through hell, no pun intended, with this eternal game between the two realms. Now I have finally given up going along with the Devil’s desires and have taken a stand with the help of Marcus, the hero in that particular story. Amelia is safe for now but who is to say how long this peace can last? There are already pawns in motion and plans unfolding. I won’t go down without a fight though. I won’t go back. Never again. We made a stand and no matter what happens, I’ll continue with what I’ve started.
FH: You’ve been through a lot in the past two thousand years, and have plenty of reason to be angry with a lot of people. Did it feel good to get your own back a little?
VEIRON: Insanely good. (grins) It is difficult to ignore the Devil. He holds sway over his minions as Heaven holds sway over the angels. Sometimes I find it hard to go against his orders but his power over me is weakening. He’s less than pleased with what I did but he’ll have to catch me if he wants to punish me, and since he can’t leave Hell, well… I guess he’s pretty *bleeped*. Did you just censor me?
FH: Yes. Not everyone wants to hear such foul language. I know you’re a Hell’s angel, but try to keep it clean. Can you give us any sneak peeks into your book in the Her Angel series?
VEIRON: Well, *bleep* me, I never knew you were such a prude about this sort of *bleeping* thing. Stop that.
FH: No! Now, answer my question.
VEIRON: *bleep* Hey! I didn’t even swear then. I said ‘fine’!
FH: Sorry. I was anticipating a rude word.
VEIRON: (huffs and shakes head) You have no faith in me. All Hell is breaking loose in my story. It’s pandemonium. The wheels were set in motion far quicker than any of us anticipated and we certainly didn’t expect that Erin would turn out to be a target. When Marcus and Amelia asked me to go to Hell, I knew it was important. They wouldn’t ask me to risk my neck going back down there if it wasn’t. I also knew that Marcus would never allow Amelia to head into Hell. It’s too dangerous for her. If she dies… well, we just have to keep her alive at all costs. I went because I knew the land well and could move around relatively undetected and with only minor problems as long as I stayed away from the Devil. I certainly wasn’t expecting to find such a beautiful and fiery woman as the object of my rescue mission.
FH: Your leading lady, Erin, goes through a lot in the story and is caught up in the same vicious game as you are. How did you feel when you met her, and when you realised that she was another pawn on the chessboard?
VEIRON: Erin is… well… she’s amazing. She’s beautiful, feisty, and really strong. She has to be. When I met her, I wasn’t sure how to feel. I knew she was different to anyone I’ve met before and I wasn’t blind or dumb enough not to notice that I couldn’t keep my eyes off her during our journey out of Hell. When we made it out and she was safe, and I realised that it wasn’t over, I was madder than hell. Erin is more than just another pawn. She’s so much more important than that, both to me and to the game between Heaven and Hell. I won’t let them have her though. I’ll protect her, no matter what it takes or the cost.
FH: That’s very romantic and very like you. You were involved with Taylor, who is now Einar’s woman, and you met her again in Her Guardian Angel, and in your story too. Was it difficult for you, especially in your story?
VEIRON: Yes. It was a nightmare. I was happy for her when I realised that she had found someone who could love her and give her everything that she wanted and needed in life. Einar is a good man and he takes care of her. I was no good for her. We were no good for each other. Being apart from her really hurt at first, but my duty meant a lot more to me back then and she didn’t want to be in Hell all the time, so it was never going to work. She was very understanding when I showed up on her doorstep with Erin, but I know it must have hurt her. I don’t think Einar was impressed, but at least he didn’t turn us away. Erin needed help and Einar was the safest person I could think of at the time.
FH: I’ll ask some fun questions now to brighten the mood and stop you from giving too much away. Describe yourself in one word?
VEIRON: Dashing. (grins)
FH: You would say that. I would have gone with evil, annoying, egotistical, vicious… anyway. What’s your favourite colour?
VEIRON: Red.
FH: Speaking of red. Is your scarlet hair colour natural?
VEIRON: Of course. I don’t dye it to match my wings and eyes if that’s what you’re thinking! The carpet matches the curtains.
FH: Thank you for that outburst of TMI. Weapon of choice?
VEIRON: Swords. It should be spears, but… I went off them after falling. I like swords… but my demonic weapon is a double-ended spear.
FH: Caffeine has rather stimulating effects on angels. You’re fallen and have gone over to the other side. Since you changed biologically, did it also change this about you?
VEIRON: What sort of question is that? That wasn’t a fun question, and you said I was doing the whole too much information thing and then ask that! I don’t really think it’s any of your business whether caffeine still has me rock hard in two seconds flat.
FH: So it does! (grins when he blushes so red he matches his hair) It’s good to hear that not everything changed about you when you switched sides.
VEIRON: *bleep* off. (grumbles) And stop saying I switched sides. It’s not as though I had much *bleeping* choice. It’s their fault that it happened and I will make them pay for it. They’ll pay for every time they *bleeped* me or someone I love, and I will bathe Hell in a river of blood before I’m through. And stop censoring me! You’re doing it on purpose now. I’m pretty certain some of what I said wasn’t a swear word. It was. You ‘bleeped’ when I said ‘wronged’. Oh, that’s low. Now it reads as though they were screwing me and those I love. Honestly. I said they’ll pay for every time they wronged me or someone I love… ah, so you didn’t bleep that one then, huh?
FH: (smiles) You love me really. Thank you for meeting with me today and chatting. Is there anything else that you’d like to add?
VEIRON: I really hope you’re not censoring every time I swear in my book, because that *bleep* will get pretty boring pretty quickly. Hah… man, you’re funny… Uh, Erin and Taylor said I had to be polite and tell you that it was lovely being interviewed by you and I had a great time. So, yeah, thanks and all that. Now can I go?
FH: It’s a little late for being polite but yes, you can go now. Thanks for the interview. After the trouble you’ve caused me in your book, I’m not surprised you couldn’t help stirring up trouble in your interview too! Sometimes I pity Erin…
Remember: If you want a hero to answer your question, leave it in a comment on the post and I’ll pass it on to the vampire / angel / demon / etc in question and he’ll answer it for you!

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Paranormal Romance Books for just $0.99 this weekend!
As part of my Birthday Bash event this weekend, April 6th-9th, I have discounted some of my paranormal romance books. There are three vampire romance novels (each over 130000 words long) available for less than a dollar / pound / euro and one angel romance novella.
Her Dark Angel is the first book in the Her Angel romance series, and Prophecy: Child of Light is the first book in my Vampires Realm series. There are new books out in these series this year. These two books are available on Amazon Kindle, Apple iBooks, BN Nook, Sony, etc.
Heart of Darkness and Love Immortal are both stand alone novels featuring two of my all-time favourite heroes. They’re available through Amazon Kindle and also Smashwords (use coupon code provided).
Grab these discounted books while you can as prices will go back to normal on April 10th.

Heart of Darkness
A vampire prince on a four hundred year old mission to avenge his murdered sister…
Aleksandr Nemov won’t stop until the last of the vampire hunter’s progeny is wiped from the Earth. Each kill has stolen a piece of his humanity, pushing him towards the black abyss all vampires hold within their hearts. Now he is teetering on the edge, close to devolving into a beast, and time is running out as he tracks the last hunter to Prague. There he finds a beautiful woman who could be his one chance for salvation, but is it already too late for him?
A vampire guard who will do whatever it takes to protect those she loves…
Elise is dedicated to her duty. It’s the only thing she has left. All that changes when she meets Aleksandr in Prague and her master grants him permission to stay at her bloodline’s mansion. She knows all about Aleksandr but none of it prepares her for how she feels when the legendary prince’s hunt becomes one for her heart. Elise battles him with all of her strength but can she stop herself from falling for the handsome hunter? When he reveals the depth of the corruption in his soul, will she have the strength to face the pain in her past and do whatever it takes to save him?
(Normally $4.99)
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Love Immortal
Rescued from werewolves by the most breathtaking man she’s ever seen, Lauren is dragged into the fight of her life and a dark world she never knew existed. There, she discovers that she’s the latest reincarnation of a goddess and must drink the blood of her immortal protector, Julian, in order to reawaken and continue her three thousand year old mission to defeat Lycaon, the original werewolf.
With the help of Julian and an organisation of people with supernatural abilities, Lauren fights for her life, their future and the fate of mankind against Lycaon and his deadly army, but can she succeed when Lycaon has killed all of her predecessors?
Can she crack the armour around Julian’s heart and seize her happily forever after with him? And can Julian bring himself to trust Lauren with the fragments of his heart after everything he’s been through?
(Normally $4.99)
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Her Dark Angel
An angel without a mission, Apollyon lives trapped in Hell guarding the bottomless pit. Surrounded by endless darkness, he longs to fly free on Earth once more but his master hasn’t called him in centuries. When the call finally comes, it’s to serve a new master, a beautiful woman he has often watched over, a woman who has always captivated him.
Serenity is shocked when a gorgeous black-winged angel shows up in her city of Paris claiming that she called him when she was only casting a simple vengeance spell. He’s no other than the angel of death! When Apollyon offers to obey her and help her have revenge on her cheating ex-boyfriend, she can’t resist the temptation, but can she resist him? Can an angel as dark as Apollyon ever fall for a mortal woman like her?
Dark, passionate and erotic, Her Dark Angel is a tale of intense desire and deepest forbidden love guaranteed to get your heart racing.
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Prophecy: Child of Light
A vampire unlike any other, Prophecy lives life in the dark until the night she encounters Valentine, a gorgeous vampire who is both her enemy and the man who will change her life forever.
Convinced that the prophecy about her is wrong and unable to ignore the vision of them that he saw in her blood, Valentine goes against his orders to execute Prophecy and kidnaps her instead. The attraction between them grows as they search for the truth behind the prophecy, battle a dark evil that threatens to destroy the world, and attempt to evade their families and the Law Keepers.
When the truth about her is revealed, will Prophecy be strong enough to face it? Will they discover a way to save the world from Hell? And will they finally see past the hatred bred into them by their families and surrender to their love?
The first novel in the Vampires Realm series, Prophecy: Child of Light, is part one in an epic tale of love and war that is sure to capture your heart and leave you craving more.
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Welcome to My Birthday Bash Event!
Between April 6th and 9th, I am having a fantastic birthday bash event full of amazing offers on my paranormal romance books, FREE books, games and competitions, excerpts, character interviews, and more.
Don’t miss your chance to download FREE books, read excerpts and character interviews, play the competitions and be in with a shot at winning a $100 Amazon Gift Certificate!
I will update the Birthday Bash page soon with the schedule of events for today and link them up as the event happens, so that’s the first place to check whenever you stop by this weekend. I’ll finish making some changes to my blog shortly so you’ll be able to see all the discounted and free books in the side bars as they become available.
It’s going to be a very busy weekend on my blog but I’m looking forward to it and I can’t think of a better way to celebrate my birthday than with all my fantastic readers!

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What paranormal romance books should I read?
As many of you know, I’m away soon on a jaunt around Europe by train (my husband’s way of getting to the Barca vs Real Madrid classico when I didn’t want to fly so soon after my ear operation – and they say women are devious). So, I’ll have three weeks of travel to fill with books and some long train journeys (over 7 hours for two of them) that will need entertainment to stave off boredom. There’s only so much time a girl can spend staring out of the window / talking to her better half. He’ll be practicing his Spanish and other languages anyway.
I want to take my Kindle with me because it’s a nightmare to carry enough clothes for three weeks in a backpack let alone carrying paperbacks too.
I am getting some amazon.co.uk vouchers for my birthday so I’ll be looking to spend those…
Here’s the books I was considering buying:
Larissa Ione’s Demonica Series – Desire Unchained, Passion Unleashed
(I’ve read the first book, and own Ecstasy Unveiled in pb)
Gena Showalter’s LOTU Series: The Darkest Surrender, The Darkest SeductionÂ
(I have them in pb but will buy Kindle so I can read them on my travels)
Lara Adrian’s Midnight Breed Series: Darker After Midnight
(I own this in pb but will buy Kindle as I have the rest of the series in both formats)
Kresley Cole’s Immortals After Dark Series
(I’ve read A Hunger Like No Other years back and gave it a 2 star. Just didn’t like it but willing to give the series a second chance if people say it gets better)
Anything else I should consider buying?
Here’s the books on my Kindle right now:
Lara Adrian’s Midnight Breed Series: Deeper Than Midnight
Gena Showalter’s Atlantis Series: The Nymph King, The Vampire’s Bride
J R Ward’s Black Dagger Brotherhood Series: Lover Eternal
(I have Lover Avenged too but that’s book 7, and have Crave in her fallen angels series, but that’s book 2… not read book 1)
Lynsay Sands Argeneau Vampires Series: Vampires Are Forever, Vampire Interrupted, The Rogue Hunter… and up to book 13 in the series
Dani Harper’s Changeling Moon
Karen Marie Moning’s Darkfever
Jacquelyn Frank’s Nightwalker Series: Jacob
Oh, what shall I read?

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